down with the sickness

flu
fever
food poisoning
headache
heart-ache
lonely valentine
lonely birthday


homosexuality and hinduism research
funny words drives me nuts

trying very hard to get involve with church activities






mama take me home sweet home~

do my foolish alibis bore you?
well, i'm not too clever
i just adore you!
go ahead.. call me irresponsible
yes! i'm unreliable
but i'm irresponsibly mad for YOU!!

been living in a distance / gap / walls with him nowdays. it just feels like i don't know him. have your ever have this kind of feelings for the ones you loved? sometimes i'm just too far from where you are. i just wanna be there for you or even let me at least hold you close.



when will this feeling go away? i can't stand and bare the pain. :(

theloveofmylife

the one i'm in love with (:

my "aiya" daughter =D [ she calls me mama ]

my passion on music

my dream dog. jack russell (:

also the dog of my dreams. [ beagle ]

my guinea pig [ yuyu ] :D

my ex puppy BuBu :)

i looorrrrrrrvvvvveeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuu!!! :D

2008

New Year Resolutions (:


SELF RESOLUTIONS!!
1/ walk back closely to God
2/ KEEP FIT!! [before graduation day :D]
3/ live a healthy lifestyle!! [ food + exercise ]
4/ study super hard!! [ no more slacking and lazyness ]
5/ be more financially stable [ LOL ]
6/ be a good girlfriend [ lalalal~~]


MATERIAL STUFF!!
1/ DSC-T10s Sony CyberShot Digital Camera!! [ pink ]
2/ lots and lots of guinea pigs!! [ LOL ]
3/ slimming products [ har har har ]
4/ lots of birthday presents!! :)
5/ a special surprise on valentines day
6/ HUGE surprise on my birthday [ i know it won't happen :( ]






GIMMMMEEEEE!!!!



RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! :D

thesecondlast

school just started and another new sem had begun. it was a really tough one i guess. this time i got 6 subjects to complete for this semester. really looking forward to go overseas to study.
the other day, god parents came from singapore, was really sorry cause i was not able to spend more spend with them due to class from morning till afternoon. but we did spend some quality time together ya? anyways, god sister asked my mum if i could go over to singapore to continue my degree.. and guess what? my mum said.. ya sure! why not? but see if she is able to get good grades to go over anot..and if i really can do it.. and i manage to go.. she will happily send me over.
during that time i was thinking..studying in singapore will be great but .. is this what i want?
i mean..yah..is still OVERSEAS .. but is singapore is "enough" to fufill my dreams to study abroad? millions of questions keep appearing in my mind..i don't know how i felt and what to do at that moment but my mouth keep saying..ya..i will try. sometimes i really wonder if i can ever go and study at singapore.. will things changed? not a surprise to say but if i'm really going i'll be staying over at my god parents house.. unless mum says she can support to rent a room out there to stay.. but what i mean here is me and him.

that 2 days each time i look into his eyes..i can still feel the times we had together..i wonder how long will i take to really let go everything. why is it so hard? am i still in love with him? or i'm just being selfish? or i think too much? do he still have any feelings for me? is there anymore last chance? i've been thinking it over and over again...till last night .. when i went to bed.. i said to myself.. for the last time.. pls .. WAKE UP! you're not a small girl anymore! grow up and do what u should do. stop dreaming about the past.!!

anyway... i shouldn't be talking about all this stuff anymore..
"i'm sorry baby~"




class was bored. organisational theory and behaviour class was a disaster~!! International Business was ok ok la.. Management accounting is my death bed.. statistics..i'm still hanging on..

afterall.. the conclusion..


it was all good (:




p/s:no complaining =D

from me to u :)

this world is cold but u don't have to go,
you're feeling sad,you're feeling lonely
and no one seems to care
this pain you cannot bare
but we all bleed the same way as you do
we have all the same things to go thru,

your days you say they're way too long
and your nights you can't sleep at all
and you're not sure what you're looking for
but u don't want to know no more

hold on..if u feel like letting go
hold on..it gets better than u know
don't stop looking, you're one step closer
don't stop searching.. is not over
so..


hold on (:

busy day

woke up at 12plus..talk to the boyfriend and decided not to go to his parents house due to my lazyness HA_HA_HA~~!! anyway,lepas mr.max aeroplane just few hours ago saying that i will cook food for meself and that he doesn't need to come over to bring me food. thx a lot!

at 4.02pm,after sending an sms saying that i missed him alot,i started house chores.firstly,went to the toilet to brush my teeth. [ yeap..haven't brush since i woke up] then went to hang those clothes which i've put in the washing machine yesterday night/morning [4am] ..then washed another basket of clothes..[just a few] and my blanket. hope that it will be dry by tonight if not i can't sleep. then cleaned the WHOLE room. yes..turn everything upside down and clean every bit of it. and it took me..errrr.. 1 hour and 10mins :D [just a small room thou ]

and now i'm pampering myself with a hot cup of tea from cameron added with honey from new zland [ took it from my rented house..don't know whose one is that but dude!! it cost RM150!! luls and it tasted like heaven :) ] oh ya.. there not even a single food is in my tummy now. only pure liquid.. i guess the tea will make me full.. or maybe not. still thinking to cook korean mushroom flava instant noodle OR to wait for the boyfriend to come home from the parents house and then i get free black_chicken_herbal_soup and some dinner [ i hope ]

anyhoo~~~ school's gonna start and another busy yet fun semester is gonna start! i can't wait till september! [ luls!! thinking so far ] why!?! cause i'm gonna be graduating from diploma and further on to degree and yes.. OVERSEAS!! wheee!! :D [ *crossfingers* hope so :P ] yeap..i am super d duper eager to go overseas. don't ask me why. cause i just feel so... so just shut up.

at last there is reply back from the boyfriend since i msg-ed him on 4.02pm just now. i guess that's all for now. oh ya~ my god damn birthday is on the 3rd day of CNY! yay! very good. >__>
no present again and NO FRIENDS and BOYFRIEND here for me on my big day!


















I WANT SURPRISES ON MY BIRTHDAY!! :(

long long time ago

happy 2008 peeps !! ;D