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this week was kinda hectic! sleepless nights, rushing assignments, exams and MORE exams to come and busy study schedule. but i was all good.

i've started to do some planings for my future. studies i mean. i do wish to go overseas but i am not sure if my parents can really support me. of course they'll just ask me to go for it eventhough is really a super hard thing for them to do but because they want the best for me so i guess..

talked to god parents about this and god pa suggested that i should go over to sg to continue my studies. i can work full time and study part time at night in SIM. i really don't know which way to go. but my parents encourage me to go for sg while i think i wanted to just finish up here in KBU and then maybe finish it up in UK for my last year.

was at klang hospital yesterday. visited kar lee my good fren. obviously she really did gain ALOT of weight due to pregnancy. but i'm really happy for her. we talked the whole evening. from the past till our current life. and the funniest thing is we never expect or SHE never expect that she will be the first to get married and have a family earlier than us [ shi wei ]

we used to joke about our love life and they alway say that i'm always the person to get married and kar lee will always be single. haha! sometimes life's really weird. the more u expect... the more unexpected things u will get. they always use to say that they envy about me because i got more guys beside me but guess what? you're already MARRIED!!! =DDD and you're gonna be a mama soon :) as for shi wei, i guess she's doing great with life and she told me that after her studies she will be getting married too. :D i'm really happy for them.

as for me, i'm still enjoying life being a student and being attached to someone i love. i wouldn't say that i put 100% commitment in this relationship because i believe that career always comes 1st and same goes to my family. i know i'm selfish in this sense and i should really plan along in this relationship because i'm not young anymore and i'm not in puppy love relationship. daddy use to tell me, "when you're older you'll understand more about life and you will bare more responsibility" i guess everyone knows about this too. well i'm learning to be a more mature girl now.

in health sense, i think is still okay cause i stopped smoking and i replace it with BRANDS chicken essence. HAHA! thanks mum for that effort to buy me this. she always remind me to bring back a pack of it before exams and if she bought new one she will ask me to bring it back. i really appreciate what she's done for me. frankly, i think this is really way better than smoking. i used to smoke when i'm tired or i'm frustrate. well..it do helps out a bit to "open up" your mind so that you can think clearly. but with chicken essence, i can stay up active for the whole day even i only got like 4-5 hours of sleep [ separately] because i need to stay up to do my revision.

btw, my lappy got infected by some trojan and worm virus. and is really heart breaking. NO i did not enter porn or watch them. it was an accident when this happens. i was doing my assignments on moral studies and we need to finds facts about hinduism view on homosexuality. and the worst part is we need to do it in malay. so yeah..is pretty hard to find info on it because most of them are more on christianity and islam. so i was on google and this pathectic link cause me to have this virus. u see..there wasn't any "words" or describtion saying that is PORN and hell i was so tired and blur that i just go and click on every link i saw and BOOM! "CAUTION!! , A VIRUS HAS BEEN DETECTED" i was like WTF!?!?!? and i thought is just some mild virus or it's a warning and just move it to chest it's gonna be okay but.. haiii....

so i'm still experiencing slow connectivity and my performance wasn't that good anymore. can anyone help me on this? :( omg i'm so stressed out about this. moreover i'm really a noob in IT or computer stuff.




GAWD! :((((

sometimes

the rain's pouring down and you wish you could find a deep hole in the ground
aunt red knocks on your door and it feels like it's crawling all over the floor
and your boyfriend's there
did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed today?
sometimes you just feel like shit
the tight pants that you have,don't fit
sometimes guys just make you sick
and you're looking for something to kick
you feel so lost in this pretty world
that's how it sometimes feels to be a girl.

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i'm so bored now that i double post.
stupid moral assignments are killing me
the hell i have to write essay's in malay!
just feels sucks to be a malaysian!!

EDITED!

due to some reason my post need to be edited. HAIII..
anyways.. let's say it in a better way aight?

so here goes~

born in this unfair country thats my fate
teacher's thought us to live in harmony
talking about racist?
those people are worst than me
new leaders are coming up
what's next to make a "better" world?
different mask i see everyday in this unfair world
because of power and money
justice fall
trust and honour is just a piece of shit
nothing is worth for us to understand about YOU
you failed us
you led us to a more miserable life
so STFU and let my people to make this world a better place!



p/s: yes i'm rasist so bomb me.

life lately

from me to you.

i'm tired.
we're losing each other.
i don't see the loving inside us.
why do we suffer like this?
why don't you let me go?
there are many why's in my head
i can't answer clearly to anyone of them
or maybe i'm asking too much
did i?
i just hope the best between us.



from me to myself.

i'm tired.
dead tired.
can anyone understand how i feel now?
assignments and exams are making me nuts
you and your thought are driving me crazy
how i wish i can just end this semester quickly and off to a peaceful place
i hope u guys faster give birth to childrens
may my dear fren deliver her baby safe and sound
pray that u guys will be healthy
i wanna sleep.
i wanna travel.
i can't stop eating
i'm lazy

yeah so kill me. boo!