another sad day

Because of you, my life had changed drastically,
Because of you, i have forgotten the feeling of being in love,
My life has changed 360 degree
and because of this, i don't even know who am i anymore.

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Life has been on a bumpy road for me. There are always ups and downs in my daily life and i have to face it without regrets and complaints. So what if you're sad and disappointed with life and yourself? Or what about your happiness? Can other people really look deep into your heart and feel what are you going through? No SHIT. They'll just talk and thinks that you're just ACTING to get their attention and to get their compliments.

Why people change their "mask" everyday to be in this society? Don't you feel tired of being such a person where you need to be someone else every single time you are in different place meeting different kind of friends and people? Why can't we just be ourselves? Is that fact of "BE YOURSELF" is so hard to practice in life? Frankly, i'm not too sure about other people perspective on this but i personally feel that is damn DAMN tiring to be someone else to fit in this society.

Friends bitching about your other friends. Betrayals and disappointments. Lies and Masks. Why? Can anyone tell me why? Especially you, how can you changed to someone who i didn't expected it to be? You're totally the opposite person that i know. You said you hate apples, but behind me you're eating the whole bucket of it. WHY??!?! Which is true and which are lies? I really can't tell from what i've experience with you, the words u said and the moves that you're doing now.

Sometimes, i thought i'm the one who's gonna change but seems like i didn't let myself down and i am pretty satisfied with the achievements that i have today especially in relationship. i think i am more matured in it and i should also thank you for putting me into this deep shit and made me to clean myself up all these mess and dirt that you've put in me.

I'm still waiting for that day to come. The day when either everything is over or a new beginning. As for now, life still goes on and i will strongly walk this road knowing that there is something is waiting ahead of me. Good or bad, i don't wanna figure it out. All i have to do is just wait and believe and have faith in you and us. I hope by going tru' this, my Christian faith will grow stronger so that He can lead and guide me to the path where he wants me to walk.

dance me to the end of love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove
Dance me to the end of love
Let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the wedding now, dance me on and on
Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long
We're both of us beneath our love, we're both of us above
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the children who are asking to be born
Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn
Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in
Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove
Dance me to the end of love

life been okaylah with work and studies. really tired and stress about both stuff. glad that i'm not attached to anyone yet.. but sometimes i feel i needed him beside me to listen to me. i hope everything will be fine and things will go according to plan.

baby, i'm still here always waiting for you. i hope after we've settled down our stuff and really have to be in love..i wish to be the person who will spend my lifetime with.

No way i'm going..

And I am telling you
I'm not going.
You're the best man I'll ever know.
There's no way I can ever go,
No, no, no, no way,
No, no, no, no way I'm livin' without you.
I'm not livin' without you.
I don't want to be free.
I'm stayin',
I'm stayin',
And you, and you, you're gonna love me.
Ooh, you're gonna love me.

And I am telling you
I'm not going,
Even though the rough times are showing.
There's just no way,
There's no way.
We're part of the same place.
We're part of the same time.
We both share the same blood.
We both have the same mind.
And time and time we have so much to share,
No, no, no,
No, no, no,
I'm not wakin' up tomorrow mornin'
And findin' that there's nobody there.
Darling, there's no way,
No, no, no, no way I'm livin' without you.
I'm not livin' without you.
You see, there's just no way,
There's no way.

Tear down the mountains,
Yell, scream and shout.
You can say what you want,
I'm not walkin' out.
Stop all the rivers,
Push, strike, and kill.
I'm not gonna leave you,
There's no way I will.

here i am

each time when i think of you
my heart is fill with gratitude
for your unfailing love
for your undying love
my life has never been the same
for your love i've been born again
though i am weak,
you made me strong

so here i am
in your hands
in your love
what more do i need?
all i ever want
is to see your face, smiling back at me
how wonderful you are,
how beautiful is your name..

you have many plans for me
plans of peace
i will soar above each and every storm
and live the dreams u have for me
i lay my life for you
set my faith in you.

baby i still believe

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I
I'm not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope
Left in my grasp
I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love never has to end

Then we must know that we will love again.

i love you :D

you're just another ordinary guy when you pass by me
didn't notice, we've became more than friends after so many rains and storms
the way you talk to me,
you have your own way to bring out the joy in my heart
the way you made me smile,
you know when are my ups and down,
baby, since the day i took u
u are part of me,my life,my everything,
i thank God for you,
i'll never want to loose you again.
Not even a thought of leaving you
i love you for who you are,
i love how we spent time together,
how we sing and dance,
how we laugh at other people's mistake,
most of all, i love the way you sing me to sleep,
darling, i really want to tell you,
that i love you sooo much,
so much that no words could express how i felt
but baby u know and i know,
that loving you is just as simple as ABC,
nothing yet complicated as that,
i'll be waiting for the day we say I DO together at the aisle,
till then, i'll be yours forever in God's name.